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my ponytail

sorry mom, it just might be coming back.

for those of you who have known me for a while, you probably know that i really miss the days when i had my ponytail. when i don't have it, i feel naked. like part of me is missing. (and i think it looks really weird)

so, for the last few years, since delilah cut my hair that night, with a pair of dull scissors in the yellow light, i've toyed with growing my hair back. it's quite a process, really:

1. first, your hair is so short that you wanna hide under a rock until it's at least a little longer.
2. suddenly, it becomes a comfortable length. you still miss playing with it, but you know, from what your mom tells you, that it's "so cute" and that all the "chicks dig it" at that length. especially the maternal part of your family. and you know that she's probably right. but...
3. boom! two days later it's already too long. you need to worry about washing it too often because it looks weird if you do, or washing it to infrequently because it looks like you dipped your head in french fries. or maybe your left brain decides to be more active than your right, and your hair reacts accordingly.
4. but then, after that short-ish phase, you enter the phase which i tend to find myself in the most. the phase where . if, somehow, i never needed to cut my hair, and those other two days disappeared, i'd be in this phase forever. your hair has just enough grease to be entertaining and not cover your forehead awkwardly. it's just long enough that it's not short, but still short enough that it's not long. you can tame it down if you want, or you can have some fun with it
5. then it starts to get a bit too long. this is what i dub the point of no return. you know you need to cut it. it's too long. it looks funny. it does that silly swoop at your part (which somehow should always be where it's not). people make fun of you, making constant references to early 70s cartoons. you can't wear a hat anymore because your hair does the thing from that OTHER 70s TV show
6. then it gets to be a real pain. it gets in your eyes when you go running. you can't wash it too much because then it gets everywhere (like that song... "your hair is everywhere... something 'bout fidelity... mmm mm yeah"). but if you don't wash it enough, you get crazy big peter-dots on your forehead. this is where i am now. i think i've got the right routine of washing my hair semi-daily, the second day being my favorite.
7. and then... before you know it... boom! it's back! in all its ponytail-ish, how-did-it-get-so-long, hippied out, sometimes geeky glory!

as taken from Jon Dyer's Blog (with one minor change):

When I grow a beard ponytail, it looks like crap.

You know your favorite shirt that you keep inexplicably finding in or near the trash? That makes you look like crap, too. But you wear it, don't you? Do you know why? Because in some instances feeling good should supersede looking good. Do you think all those dance moves that look good on MTV are fun? Hell no. They're hard. The fun dances can't be done when anyone else is around because they usually involve flailing and looking like crap. Look at the robot. That shit is fun. Unless it's 1982, and you're not trying to save a youth center, you can't do it on a public dance floor without looking like an a-hole. It's sad, but in this world, what looks good and what feels good rarely coincide. When are you going to stop worrying about how you look and start worrying about how you feel?

so that's that. i'm not too far now. i figure by the time i go to the states in july, it just might be ready. i guess i'll reevaluate for jeremy's wedding. but until then...

May 22, 2008 @ 1:06am . 166 views . 7 comments